night

I cud run out of battery before I publish this one, today I was out with a friend I knew for almost 7 years, and it struck me that it's been +7 years since 2003!! we r in 2011, I was looking at Amman, and it's beautiful at night, it got a charm, I don't like it much at daytime especially with the traffic

I'm writing to note that often we forget to search for ourselves, subtracting what we do to survive from the equation, and through that little window of free hours we spare for ourselves each day, even becoming narrower, look for what you came here for and tell the world about it

Hugs,

Tala

back

I decided that I will press publish today, I really dont have anything to post about, my life revolves about work and its been hectic to the level that whenever I go for a meeting with our director I get anxiety attacks that I feel I will throw up, Im taking responsibility for what I report and its consequences which really doesnt let me sleep, seems that now its vacations time, but not for me, now I get to take decisions regarding my approach to work, sometimes I feel lost & its frustrating and Im expected to deliver in a quite short durtion and everything seems to be urgent, where I work its about getting to the findings in the shortest way possible while being efficient and realistic too, and I found out something about myself is that Im a problem spotter. like I scan for problems. lol, I think I lost my ability to amplify what is ok which keeps me hesitant to making a decison. sigh.. I just hate it when im pushed into something, but I'm learning so much and I discovered that I really know nothing, and that I still have soo much to learn.. I really want to do something with what I can, and I can.

I went to a garage sale the otherday and got a really nice cabinet & made a tiny library of my scattered < 1o books in my room which is something im excited about, and just got a sketch book with crayons :D yaaaaay Ive been wanting to get one since last month.

bte3rafu hai il ughnieh? iktashaftha :)



promise to post in a while.
sayonara

scribble on every wall

I love the internet because there are no limits, no boundaries, no walls and its sad to bring those boundaries from our day to day life and impose them here..

ya3ni this is too much to bare. 7illu 3anna!! let me offend you, shu sayer 3alaik dear reader ??? Toz Tozein Talateh .. why the hell should I think about who the hell is reading what I am writing or that someone somewhere will hold me accountable for what I write on a BLOG or an electronic site ?!

SERIOUSLY!!!

I just want to put myself in a space shuttle, get out of the world and get a jumbo amplifier and tell humans :

YOU ARE CONTROL FREAKS, YOU ARE OBSESSED WITH ORGANIZATION AND THIS WILL FAST FORWARD YOU TO DOOMS DAY

I wish I can tell you what my day is like these days, and what kind of thoughts Im having, I didn't write anything in a while, and I'm sick, physically and mentally and spiritually and emotionally but its good, Im happy with it.

the excercise Im doing lately is pretending that I am God who decided to look at the world in 2009 and do a quantity survey and see what the human specie that I created have done.
I figured out one thing, the world as a planet is " Noisy " .. imagine how much noise the world is making..

how come no one in the galaxy heard us already?!!

and I thought if some catastrophe happened and silenced planet earth, will it remain silent? and my answer was no way.

NO WAY.

simply because its alive.

like, think about the tiniest system there, to the animals and all creatures around us, humans, plants & everything, there are languages and there are communication links & levels,, all kind of transmitters and receivers, think about the internet, think about the whole universe.. there is an infinite amount of information everywhere, some that we understand and some that we don't,, but its there.. just tune in. so

why oh why why why... WHY do we need to censor what is visible.

really, WHY?

I think because it challenges authority.

but don't you think that the whole censorship concept is stupid and holds us back from our potential?

I need to polish my mind every now and then .. so I learn new things and it won't come without challenging thought.

Protest Posters for Gaza

I made some Posters , they are quite simple, if you felt like joining people on the streets, feel free to use any of them. print, get a flat stick and glue and you are ready.

if you do anything of sorts, Protests around ME or you do Poster Design, please do share your work.

whatever done is better than nothing, whether you would join a donation campaign, Fund Raise, Join Peaceful Events, write, or hit the streets. all is good, but its cool to have objectives.

in Dubai, all I do is wear a Keffiyeh and hit the walking areas and the malls. Im contacting the red crescent, WFP tomorrow morning and see what they are doing.


GAZA should keep standing. it should survive till Jan 20th and Feb 10th.

Hussni Mubarak biddo 7areg!

Livni will not win the next elections. take my word.

I miss you Amman but I can see you

it feels like the streets are talking;

أنا الشارع
اشتقت لكم

Tired because we keep talking to ourselves most of the time, but I am Happy today, people will meet in the streets.. :) I am Happy a voice will resonate somewhere on this planet. and yeah today its from Amman :) I am Happy you guys are there, actually this is great.

whatever you say, I hope you bring it from the heart and remain focused on your purpose.

in Peace we reach out for Gazans.

Ahli w s7abi; Im with you in spirit today.

love you Amman.

did you ever notice

did you ever notice
how we practice discriminative thinking
when we look around
we say

this is a circle
that is a square
there is a boat
stars fill the sky, and there
in the horizon
is where the waters begin

x from y
its how we think ..


what makes a thing, a thing?
can you see how we learned to see?

can you see your mind
drawing those lines around objects and giving them names
we highlight them and push them forward
our images are of a million little things
then we bring forward the bits of truth that we want to see
making our own worlds

same with saying

this is me
and this is everything else that is not me
the truth is
we never were isolated
its just how we see
egoless
one
infinite
not

we are like everything
as real as the vacuum we don't see

how many objects are in the picture?

Partial Lunar Eclipse

did you go crazy anytime between the last two days? anything weird happened?

Finito

I earned a new nickname :D

The First Annual National Technology Parade Opening Today

The University of Jordan, the United Nations Development Fund for Women, IEEE in Jordan, and Leading Jordanian Universities are proud to invite you to attend the First Annual Technology Parade opening today May 13th, 2008

The Technology Parade came in response to a global drive towards capitalizing on the innovative potential of students to provide technological solutions to challenges facing businesses, governments, civil society, and local communities. it aims at motivating the innovative thinking and practical skills of university students especially students of engineering and information technology disciplines, this is attained through providing proper academic steer, financial support and guidance to connect undergraduates’ projects outputs with the market and local community needs and establish interactive communication channels between various market parties, educational institutions and undergraduate students in addition to encouraging healthy and ethical habits of work among students and to emphasize the role of female students in the fields of technology and engineering technology as well.

Over the course of two academic semesters, students from 14 Jordanian universities worked on designing and implementing innovative, technology – driven projects that will be showcased during the Parade. These projects addressed real life challenges from Jordan such as alternative energy solutions, educational outreach, and preservation of natural resources, automation of public services, and a number of other issues where technology can provide cost–effective, efficient, and innovative solutions and alternatives.

According to Dr. Gheith Abandah, Computer Engineering Department Chair at the University of Jordan, Organizing Committee Chair; 79 student teams registered and carried out projects that solve problems which fall under 6 themes drawn from the above challenges and these teams were distributed as follows: JU 28, JUST 10, Al Hussein University 8, Hashemite University 8, PSUT 5, Yarmouk 5, BAU 4, 2 teams from each Al Ahliah Amman, Applied Science University , Al Zarqa Private University and Philadelphia University, one team from each Petra University, Isra University and Muta University.

61 student teams successfully made it and submitted their projects to the parade in due time while 9 project ideas were specific problems suggested by organizations in the local community such as UNIFEM, MoICT, Jordan Electric Power Company and leading Jordanian and regional engineering and IT companies such as Sedco, Optimiza, and Estarta.

A 500 JOD prize will be rewarded for one winning project in each of the six categories, another 500 JOD prize will be rewarded for best project voted to by the audience using a student developed E-voting system, a best project supervisor prize will be rewarded to the teams' choice of best supervisor and it would cover the expenses for attending any academic conference valued at 1500 JOD, results will be announced in the opening ceremony of the Parade.

Moreover, a two-day program was selectively prepared to include a collection of activities by students, presentations and panel discussions delivered from high profile academia and ICT speakers to prepare students for the Job market in addition to 3 exhibitions for student projects, robotic works, companies & sponsors.

"The design process itself, as we've advanced through the projects pros and cons, the reasoning behind every little feature and how one can understand the nature of the developed project by theory. Of course teamwork was also a great privilege to experiment with my partner" – Team 3

"The challenge; at moments when everything seemed impossible, a simple idea revealed a lot of hope." - Team 55

Those were some answers we received from students upon asking them about the most enjoyable part in developing their projects.

For more details visit: http://fetweb.ju.edu.jo/tp

Place:
Saeed Al Mufti Auditorium
Faculty of Engineering and Technology
The University of Jordan

Date and Time:
May 13th-14th: 9:00 - 17:00

Entrance Fees: Free

UPTIGHTNESS

i think this is the main problem of Jordanian people. don't ask me why but its like the wall everyone hides behind. what happened to simplicity, being clear and genuine, did it become so backward and makes you socially naive now?

i live in a community of uptight poeple, there is no way i can personally relax, i am uptight myself, i react to it by being part of it otherwise "i wont be good enough or knowledgable enough", family is the only place i feel like myself beside two girls i know, i lost faith in others and the fact that they could be genuine and not showing layers over layers of mind control and business crap.

anyways, im quoting this part from an article i found a person talking about uptightness:

People are uptight. Lots of them. And it’s bad. Bad for them, bad for their co-workers, families, and organizations. Uptight people create uptight policies. Uptight policies stifle creativity, happiness, and good, healthy relationships. it appears as if large groups of reactionary, really uptight people have picked opposite sides on an unimportant issue and are fighting as if winning the fight (for either side) would make the world a substantially better place.

I feel the same way about all political correctness in general. It is a symptom of uptightness - it’s about being so afraid to make a social mistake that we have to couch ideas in the most blandly incomprehensible way possible.

what is uptightness, anyway:

Aside from not being a noun, which is how I used it in the title, “uptightness” is not hard to define. Uptight behavior is expending more energy on a cause than can be justified by the best possible outcome of the effort, usually motivated by insecurity of some sort. In other words, it is treating a trivial issue as if it were paramount, not because you have a substantial, measurable interest in the outcome, but because the issue plays on your particular weaknesses as a person.

and here is an illustration of uptightness in a greeting card:

"Please accept with no obligation, implied or implicit, our best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially responsible, low-stress, non-addictive, gender-neutral celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced within the most enjoyable traditions of the religious persuasion of your choice, or secular practices of your choice, with respect for the religious/secular persuasion and/or traditions of others, or their choice not to practice religious or secular traditions at all. We also wish you a fiscally successful, personally fulfilling and medically uncomplicated recognition of the generally accepted calendar year 2007, but not without due respect for the calendars of choice of other cultures whose contributions to society have helped make America great. Not to imply that America is necessarily greater than any other country nor the only America in the Western Hemisphere And without regard to the race, creed, color, age, physical ability, religious faith or sexual preference of the wishes. By accepting these greetings you are accepting these terms. This greeting is subject to clarification or withdrawal. It is freely transferable with no alteration to the original greeting. It implies no promise by the wisher to actually implement any of the wishes for herself or himself or others, and is void where prohibited by law and is revocable at the sole discretion of the wisher. This wish is warranted to perform as expected within the usual application of good tidings for a period of one year or until the issuance of a subsequent holiday greeting, whichever comes first, and warranty is limited to replacement of this wish or issuance of a new wish at the sole discretion of the wisher.”

Music Animation Machine

i just came across something called the Music Animation Machine which is a visual way to understand or see music move, without seeing what MAM does, i can relate to this visuals, i think this is what it means to say that to understand music you internally move with it, there are lots of crazy stuff ppl has done with it, you can encrypte words within songs too

i remember when i was in high school my uncle gave me a collection of classical and jazz music, some i liked some i didn't, some i don't understand, its seasonal for me to get those cds out, but this piece, though a bit sad i like it a lot and it happened to be illustrated so here you go bloggers..

the lines in my head

a developing country's definition, what we dont have to be one

human rights index for Jordan

understanding social transitions and coping with it

PLO-NAD and current Israeli legal theft of lands, highlight the violations by Dugard

what is freedom, seriously seriously!

prison is information out of reach

baba the goverments and children the overprotected nations from the different

salvation is education ... not luxury schools without good teachers, not multiple degrees without knowledge, not creativity without meaning, lose yourself and fight your fears.

i dont want my life to be an effect, it is and i hate it

i get scared a lot

i dont belong to anything and i dont think i tend to

i hate the media, its never the truth

i heart open source

whoever you are, whatever you are i want to know why?

i miss people and places

God Bless the Internet

the new face of addiction

thats all i guess, nightyyy

Kant's -- What is Enlightment? (1784)

200 years before i came to earth, Kant answered this question saying:

Enlightenment is man's emergence from his self-imposed immaturity. Immaturity is the inability to use one's understanding without guidance from another. This immaturity is self-imposed when its cause lies not in lack of understanding, but in lack of resolve and courage to use it without guidance from another. Sapere Aude! [dare to know] "Have courage to use your own understanding!"--that is the motto of enlightenment

Sabaa7 il Khaair ya Bloggers =)

Goooood Morning pretty people, i wish you all a beautiful day, you know,, there is nothing better than seeing a sunrise and hearing birds in the morning and breathing fresh air =D

My great grandfather used to say a man's working day starts with the sunrise and ends with the sunset, i was looking at the garden, i remembered him and it just occured to me that there is so much beauty around us we miss everyday, small things that would make us warm and i wanted to tell you that its up to us how we walk through our days and we can make them sweeet, as much as you are.

so here is my dedication to you,, Mawtini By Elham Madfai... did you know that the national anthem for Iraq and Palestine is Mawtini

You Passed Weird 6 Months Ago and Thank God For My Mind

Disclaimer: im still feeling good about the new year despite what you are going to read.

The E-mail:
its weird how everything we do has a social dimension and we characterise it to become part of our own bubble full with hazy borders that make you want to be with people with similar beliefs and you promote those beliefs where the sole unconscious purpose is to protect yourself from the bubble which is chalking you and keeping you sane.

i recieved this e-mail from an engineering
technical local society:

لماذا لا نحتفل برأس السنة مثل بقية
الناس؟
كنت أتسأل عن هذا.. كما يتسأل عنه كثير من المسلمين اليوم..
و لما
فكرت في الأمر مليا وجدت أن الاحتفال بمضي سنة من عمرنا غباء كبير ..
وأعنى ما
أقول ..
نعم غباء كبير ،،
لأنه ليس في تلك المناسبة داعي للاحتفال بقدر ما
فيها من دواعي للحزن والندم ..
فعلى ماذا نحتفل ؟
على خسارة سنة من
العمر!
أم على اقتراب الأجل !
أم نحتفل بمخالفة أمر النبي الأمي عليه الصلاة
والسلام
بتطبيقنا طقوس الضالين و نفرح بمعصية الرب العظيم!
عجبت لعقل من وضع
هذا الموعد و تلك المناسبة للاحتفال..!
وعجبت لمن يحتفل بهذه المناسبة من
المسلمين الغافلين!
أليس الإنسان يحزن إذا خسر شيء من مقتنياته التافهة ،
فكيف يفرح بخسران شيء من أغلى ما لديه وهو (العمر) ..؟
أم نحتفل بالخسارة
لأن الغرب الكافر يفعل ذلك بجهالة..!!
و إذا علمنا أننا لن نرجع يوما فات من
العمر و لو أنفقنا ما في الأرض جميعا
فحق لنا إن نحزن 360 مرة في رأس السنة بدل
أن نحتفل
و إذا تذكرنا خطايانا التي ارتكبناها في الأيام الماضية حق لنا أن نتوب
إلى الله و نخضع لأمره و نبتغى رضاه بكل ما نملك من حول و قوة عسى أن نكفر عن شيء
مما سطر في كتابنا في السنة الماضية و ليس أن نحتفل (نزيد الطين بلة) و نخالف أمر
رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم الذي أمرنا بمخالفة اليهود و النصارى و نهانا عن
الاحتفال بأعيادهم و ممارسة طقوسهم (الغبية) و أفراحهم (الدنية).
أحبتي في الله
لن ينال رضي الله من سعى في معصيته ..
و لن يفرح بالنعيم من فرح بما يورد
الجحيم..

i sit and i wonder.. i work with those people

The Class:
i went to school, took a quiz and our professor yelled at us, being very disappointed because almost none got it right although he explained the whole principle last wednesday, he said that he feels very sorry for our generation (no, actually he felt sorry for his effort) and that if any of us was his son, he would have disciplined him or maybe hit him because the level of carelessness is not tolerable. one of the students said, your son would report you to the police, so the professor answered " wladi m2addabin, iza darabet il wa7ad minhom bi2ouli udrobni kaman 3ashanni ghaltan"

...oh my professor, (i really love the way you explain the classes) you are one of the best teachers,, but you would not mind hitting your daughter to preserve respect. why do you have to instil fear to induce change. all i wanna tell you is that today is not yesterday.. you have to face it. i hope one day we will find an alternative other than fear to push people to the harder right option.

The spirit of preparation:

through facebook
a fellow engineering student sends this mass mail:

Subject: الغش أفضل وسياه للنجاح
اقتربت
الامتحانات النهائية و عدنا للدراسة و التعب,والأمر الذي لا يعرفه معظمنا أن
الدراسة لا تفيد و السهر و التعب لا يعطي مفعول,انك ترهق جسدك و عقلك من أجل
امتحان,وأنت تستطيع أن تنجح و تحرز أعلى الدرجات بوسيلة أخرى ألا وهي الغش,و هي
وسيلة مضمونة و ناجحة و مجربة تحكمها الظروف لكن ان تعاملت معها بذكاء و شجاعة فسوف
تحصل على نتائج عظيمة.
صدقوني ليس هناك أجمل من شعور النجاح ب مادة عن طريق الغش
خاصة اذا لم تكن تعرف شيئا عنها,فأنا من تجربتي الشخصية و الطويلة في مجال الغش
اكتشفت أن الغش يولد شعورا رائعا,أن تذهب الى امتحان صعب و ما تكون عارف اشي و تقعد
جنب واحد نيرد مقطع المادة و لما تطلع النتيجة تلاقي حالك جايب قده أو يمكن أعلى
منه و تنظر له نظرة استهزاء و استعلاء و تقول له بكل سخرية : أنا الي مش عارف
اشيبالمادة أجيب أعلى منك يا نيرد هههههه
.سأعرض لكم بعض الخطوات الأساسية للغش
و نرجو أن تفيدونا بما لديكم من معلومات.
أولا.عندما تمارس عملية الغش أو تريد
البدء بذلك ,أوعك تيجي عينك ب عين المراقب,غش ب راحتك و لا تحاول تتطلع على
المراقب,لأنه بمجرد انه يشوفك بتتطلع عليه بفهم انك بدك تغش.
ثانيا.وانت بالبيت
قبل الامتحان,حاول انك تكتب برشومة تكون اصغر ما يمكن بس فيها اكبر عدد من
المعلومات واكتيها ب خط واضح و حطها بالكم تبع البلوزة أو البوط أو اذا كان قلبك
قوي حطها خلال الأمتحان بين وراق الامتحان.
ثالثا.من أهم القوانين بالغش انك تغش
بأعصاب مرتاحة و ولا كأنك بتعمل اشي,و مهما صار لا تخاف ولا تتوتر لأنه دغري رح
يبين عليك, وحتى لو مسكك المراقب تصرف بهدوء أعصاب و أنكر ثم انكر ثم انكر انك كنت
تغش.
.رابعا.اذا كان الك شب صاحبك شاطر أو بنت صاحبتك شاطرة , روح قبل الامتحان
ب نص ساعة و اول ما تشوفه او تشوفها ضلك ملزق و وين ما راح روح ورااا حتى لو دخل او
دخلت على الحمام و لما يبلش الامتحان اقعد جنبه ولا تسمح لحدا غيرك يقرب عليه و
حاول غش منه قد ما تقدر بهدوء و تركيز ومش غلط تقرا شوية قران عشان ربنا يخليك تشوف
ورقة صاحبكمنيح
.خامسا.انت او انتي بالامتحان ما تهتم ب حدا غير حالك,لو ابوك
قاعد جنبك ما اتغششه الا لما تتأكد انك غشيت منيح.
سادسا لما تغش من حدا جنبك
خليك قاسي,اذا ما بده يغششك افقعه ب وجهو ,خوفه.و على قولة المثل " ان لم تستحي
فاصنع ما شأت " , ما تستحي من حدا بالامتحان.الي بستحي بتروح عليه يا
جماعة.
سابعا.من الطرق المضمونة بالغش انك تكتب بعض المعلومات على الدرج الي بدك
تقدم عليه الامتحان,حاول اكتب بخط واضح لكن عشوائي عشان التمويه, و جيب معك قلم حبر
من لون غير عن الي بدك اتجاوب فيه الامتحان عشان اذا المراقب شاف الدرج تبعك ما
يقدر يمسك عليك دليل.
ثامنا.من المفضل انك تلبس طاقية و نزلها على وجهك شوي عشان
عيونك يوخدو راحتهم.
تاسعا.حاول زبط المراقب قبل أو خلال الامتحان ب كم كلمة
لطيفة و كبر راسه شوي و حسسه انه اشي مهم عشان اذا شافك بتغش يعمل حالو مش
شايف.
.عاشرا.اذا كان الامتحان دوائر خلي واحد من النيردات الي بتعرفهم يبعتلك
الدوائر على المسجات بالموبيل أو ممكن و هو طالع من الامتحان يرمي جنبك ورقة او
محرمة عليها الأجوبة و هاي الطرق أثبتت فعاليتها على مر السنين و بتجربتي
الشخصية.
أخيرا صدقوني انا نجحت ب 50% من موادي بالغش و مثلي الكثير من شباب
الوطن الأوفياء.الدراسة ما بتجيب غير وجع الراس و ياما طلاب تعبوا و درسو و ما
جاوبو اشي بالامتحان و ياما ناس راحو على الامتحان ما بعرفو اشي بالمادة و جابو
علامات كاملة و صدقوني الفئة الأخيرة لها التسبة الأكبر.

im so sorry to say that this is what is happening for real.

Different from every year, i went out to party yesterday, i felt like i dont live in Amman, or that i dont know whats going with Amman if this is the new Amman, its so filled with contradictions,, is the country its people??
we rented a car me and my friends and the plan was lets go dine, go to the movies then go party. we ate la7ata insa6a7na and the bill was too much and it was just the brand name that we paid for, we made the countdown at the movies, it was coool, i just wouldnt shut up, we were watching Hitmaaaan,, agent 47 .. the seats were so great and comfy

lets get to the part where i was left in shock.. its 1 AM and we wanted to go to party, we managed to get free enterance for one of those parties, w ya raitna ma ru7na! we lost our way to the place, we got there something like 1:40

i was so excited about the music, the lights, the dancing.. seriously my feet were moving on their own,, the music was great, but the atmosphere was very disgusting,, we didnt stay for long, most of the people there were early 20s, you'd see a guy and his girlfriend kissing on the dance floor, very touchy, he'd be reaching out to her butt and she is fine,, i was wondering to myself, are there any two in here who are in love, or is it the rawness of it all, revealed when the controlling mask is gone,, another two gays kissing and i mean it and they were so proud and they wanted us to see and they would dance infront of us as if they are saying to hell you hate us we're gonna do it more and more, there was a gay guy hitting on another (straight)guy so he went and kissed him and that guy slapped him in the face! God that was hilarious, there were lesbians too, in threes! even girls after guys as well... i was so shocked, but not as much as my friends because i knew it existed and somehow i've heard it so much that the image belief of existance is passing Ok signal in my head... i really dont know if its right or wrong....
what i discovered is that people dont know how to dance! wallah they dont!
they just get as close as they can get to their partners, this is their idea of dancing!!!
i was like, run for your life, i danced on three songs, had a drink and went home.
there is a video im waiting for my friend to upload it,, that should be fun to see.

i learned that life is not ideal by any means, and that people dont see life from the same scope, never will, i learned that negative expectations should be always placed among your forecast, it should be embraced and dealt with. it shouldn't demotivate you because this is reality and its no better anywhere else.

and know that you can always do better.
we crossed to 2008, Happy New Year :)

Flying Thoughts

well im at the computer lab alone at school =D (evil smile)

what can i do here?? hmmmmmmmmmmmm......... there is no supervisor 7atta
since im boring and clueless,, i will do nothing bleh! im blogging instead =D


i used to think that when i have a big thing to do, i need to clear up space and time for it as in isolate myself from whatever i normally do to dedicate my concentration to this task,, while no,, i shouldnt stop my normal life for its sake.

its two things and only two things: assess your abilties and estimate how much time it needs and give safety extra time and fit it in your daily life and let it melt.

i have problem in both,, like i give more time, a factor of 3 and i isolate myself and i do nothing till i get negative signal that im at .9 0f 1 time span needed and i start the panic,, now, the x3 factor gives a guilt relief as in " haynee im doing nothing except working on it" while actually this is not the right way. and same scenario with THINKING ABOUT STUFF AND NOT DOING THEM.

for sure everything need to be thought of in the begining, sketched somewhere,, but quite soon later,, what really matters is reading feedback once you start implementing. it should be an indicator whether you are on the right path or not.

plus everything on paper LOOK hard,, but touching real facts, tying real nodes tells you what you should do next.

practice elimates errors and increases confidence.

i love myself when my brain works, jad it feels good and im sure everyone does,, but when im stuck, lost and vision-less im so helpless, useless and empty.

me going home, to my messy life, but its mine :D

i love my life.