learn to stick

 A lesson I learned from practice is: if you made a plan, stick to it. no plan is immune to failure and I know for sure that once you move to execution, you need to keep elaborating progressively and revise the plan given the actuals, but only to fulfil your goal and not to modify it. If there are any risks I need to consider, it should be done at an earlier stage, a lack of confidence during execution mode is pointless. after you have initiated your project, you have to keep working your way around that image, go back to what you committed to and remind yourself of your goals. 

when you look at a reality and it matches that perspective, its a great feeling. I admire architects.

the beauty of projects is that you start at a point A, and you decide to go to point B when no one really has gone there before, so you are designing a route (among many)  to get to B for the first time and you agreed to get there with constraints.



 

Riding the Gravity Express

to somewhere else in space, to somewhen else in time.

some thought provoking videos.

scribble on every wall

I love the internet because there are no limits, no boundaries, no walls and its sad to bring those boundaries from our day to day life and impose them here..

ya3ni this is too much to bare. 7illu 3anna!! let me offend you, shu sayer 3alaik dear reader ??? Toz Tozein Talateh .. why the hell should I think about who the hell is reading what I am writing or that someone somewhere will hold me accountable for what I write on a BLOG or an electronic site ?!

SERIOUSLY!!!

I just want to put myself in a space shuttle, get out of the world and get a jumbo amplifier and tell humans :

YOU ARE CONTROL FREAKS, YOU ARE OBSESSED WITH ORGANIZATION AND THIS WILL FAST FORWARD YOU TO DOOMS DAY

I wish I can tell you what my day is like these days, and what kind of thoughts Im having, I didn't write anything in a while, and I'm sick, physically and mentally and spiritually and emotionally but its good, Im happy with it.

the excercise Im doing lately is pretending that I am God who decided to look at the world in 2009 and do a quantity survey and see what the human specie that I created have done.
I figured out one thing, the world as a planet is " Noisy " .. imagine how much noise the world is making..

how come no one in the galaxy heard us already?!!

and I thought if some catastrophe happened and silenced planet earth, will it remain silent? and my answer was no way.

NO WAY.

simply because its alive.

like, think about the tiniest system there, to the animals and all creatures around us, humans, plants & everything, there are languages and there are communication links & levels,, all kind of transmitters and receivers, think about the internet, think about the whole universe.. there is an infinite amount of information everywhere, some that we understand and some that we don't,, but its there.. just tune in. so

why oh why why why... WHY do we need to censor what is visible.

really, WHY?

I think because it challenges authority.

but don't you think that the whole censorship concept is stupid and holds us back from our potential?

I need to polish my mind every now and then .. so I learn new things and it won't come without challenging thought.

can you think of something

my boss asked us this question:

What is the product that you can manufacture locally, that meets quality standards, and when exported to foreign markets would still remain cheaper than its Chinese alternative?



p.s : I still don't have an answer.

Poverty : Broad Strokes

while preparing to write about Poverty, I discovered that I didn't know how to answer basic questions relating to it and that its a complex issue hiding behind a word, its not a simple problem to say the least, and while surfing the web for an understanding to poverty relating to where we are, I came with this structure with simplified answers to follow:

how to define poverty?
Who is considered poor?
How to statistically measure poverty?
where are the poor in Jordan? how about the rest of the world?
What needs to be done?
can we translate that to action?

see people, what I was looking for is: if I want to develop a content that can be given to others that says " this content will help fight poverty " what would it be?? I don't see quite well, I don't have answers but this is what I hope we would get to all together, lets think, many heads are definitely better than one

to be continued..


Poverty [ blended notes from several places to reflect upon]
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How to define poverty?

is it not having the cost to get by?

"Poverty is really the lack of freedom to have or to do basic things that you value" Amartya Sen

"Rather than a single poverty measure, what you really want is to develop multiple measures of deprivation and look at them on a regular basis" Rebecca Blank

you neutralize poverty "by keeping the focus on the characteristics of poor people rather than on the economy, politics and society are more broadly constructed" Alice O'conner

what are the characteristics of the poor in Jordan?? illiteracy? unemployment?

what is the statistical measure?? US--> The present system is based on a minimally nutritious food budget devised decades ago by the Department of Agriculture. The food budget is multiplied by three because back in the 1950's and 60's food was considered one-third of an average family's outlays. define the poverty line?

who is responsible for poverty — government, society or the individual?

How to measure poverty? Who are The poor?

one way is to use income as the single criterion for judging who is poor.

should the family of a hardworking full-time employee earning the minimum wage be blamed for poverty because the minimum no longer lifts the worker's income above the poverty level? should we look into neighborhoods?


http://blogactionday.org/js/b12a95cbc4a0decdba903d1041446d37a6275cf9

did you ever notice

did you ever notice
how we practice discriminative thinking
when we look around
we say

this is a circle
that is a square
there is a boat
stars fill the sky, and there
in the horizon
is where the waters begin

x from y
its how we think ..


what makes a thing, a thing?
can you see how we learned to see?

can you see your mind
drawing those lines around objects and giving them names
we highlight them and push them forward
our images are of a million little things
then we bring forward the bits of truth that we want to see
making our own worlds

same with saying

this is me
and this is everything else that is not me
the truth is
we never were isolated
its just how we see
egoless
one
infinite
not

we are like everything
as real as the vacuum we don't see

how many objects are in the picture?

a question

do we have a number for how much printed money is there in the world measured in Dollars?
what would the figure be like? trillions? quadtrillions? centillions?! can we know that?

Answer 1

Answer 2

Answer 3

Why Israel is not a Country

Israel is NOT a country because:

1- it has non defined borders.
2- it has a non defined constitution.
3- it has a non defined capital.
4- a state with no viable resources

right now, Historic Palestine is a group of villages that are hardly connected to stand as a state for the Palestinians. Peace in such conditions cannot be real, its a joke we are being fed, some morphine shots for the arab nations. Peace can only be attained with a strong economy which currently doesn't exist.

always keep this in mind, why would anyone give you rights when they don't have to? what do you have that would keep your existence conserved and your rights not violated by others? when an entity with power decides to violate/invade common rights, does it break down to make the entity stoppable? Iraq is occupied and torn into 3 pieces. the United Nations can't call it occupation.. what can we do then???? Iran is benefiting from it as well, am i wrong?... everyone wants control. dont trust anyone. fight for your rights!

Governments are mobs that want people to deal with corruption so they can bring in money to the treasury from taxations, nationalities are the biggest joke anyone ever invented.

America suffers from 3 major problems:

1- The increase of Oil prices and which is a dilemma for every industrial country
2- The high cost of war on Iraq, 3 trillion Dollars so far
3- The decreasing real estate prices in the states which means the banks will get bankrupt! the federal bank interfered on its own expense to save the banks and the oil prices!

according to Mr Talal Abu Ghazaleh, 2030 will witness the peak of the world's economic crisis.

from the middle east up to china there will be a boom in trade during this period and Arab countries will have to have strategies to use the money excess which is currently floating that drove Saudi Arabia to spend 25% of its national income on education, though the best investment is to go towards Africa and invest there. this is the only way to secure resources and reserves for the near so dark coming arab region future.

between 2030 - 2050 Africa will be the most important region in the world because it will have to feed the world.

This the time where China is the big thing along with Russia which is the second world source for Oil.

update: i dont know why,,, but i think, that its too wrong to drive Jordan to become an industrial country that needs Oil to be run... if Jordan is to be clever, its should turn to agriculture and stop taking more people in. i think we need to invest in Agricultural Technologies, not research in Power Alternatives.. we can trade power solutions for agriculture. but we dont have water... boom! what do you think???

Horton Hears a Who

This is not an animation for kids, its the best animation movie i've seen in ages. its definitely one of my all time favourites. i loved it. great script and stunning scenes.

"There is an elephent in the sky, his name is horton and our world is a speck on clover in his world"

Horton the Elephant on the fifteenth of May in the jungle of Nool hears a small speck of dust talking to him. It turns out the speck of dust is actually a tiny planet, home to a city called "Whoville", inhabited by microscopic-sized inhabitants known as Whos

conclusion: we have to find a way to talk to another species at least on our planet.

62nd Anniversary of Independence

هدية الحرية هي الاستقلال
بذرة الطيبة دائما تكبر و تعطي امل و حياة
كل عام و الاردن بخير و العالم بخير
يا رب اعطينا السلام و اعطينا الوعي لنفهم معنى الحرية

update: i just noticed that i wrote 62th instead of 62nd, well its too late to fix it, anyways i just realised that whenever i read it, it read 26th anniversary, not sixty second anniversaryy because sixty second sounds like sixty seconds! i think i lost my mind, im writing a lengthy report and started seeing things.... actually when i blog at times of deadlines, it means mish mla72aaa and im getting somehow hyper over coffee. sigh.. hanat!!

Entrepreneurship and Research as Applied Concepts

There are lots of organisations promoting and offering start up grants for small businesses upon providing good and implementable business plans and having a reliable and needed end product, some get to 15-30 thousand JOD.

private companies who have been established long time ago already know that they need to invest in the added value to their products in order to compete and survive in the new unshielded market, so there will be some coupling between academic institutions [experienced professors who have been neglected and underpaid for long] with active research masters students and the private sector for percentage of profit but its for selective few and governed by the needs of the current chamber of commerce, mainly they are selecting the best professors and students according to GPAs. some professors are leaving the academia to the market.

i was thinking of the higher coucil for the science and technology which is investing something like 450,000 JOD in research and startup grants in addition another 300,000 donated from the EU to buisnesses to be on their feet by 2010, somehow this money invested will be given back to the EU for machinary and facilities needed so i hope it gets spent wisely. i think software companies have more chances to succeed than companies that have to do with mass production though i would go for the need of the latter.

I'm wondering what the industrial future will be like here. like, what kind of workers will they hire and what will happen with the overall social condition given the reality we live now, what will the minimum wage be, what about the taxing system and cost of living, will more foreign working force start flowing in, what is the model we are following, what are we gambling on when it comes to the country's resources. what will drive all this and what are the safety factors here, what are the heads to get the end product, what controls it in the future....

If you secured some capital will you take the risk to join the new craze ?!

the fish bowl

i just have a thought and i want to put it down, i cant keep the thought off my head that whoever told us about free will lied. and that whatever drive we have has a physically bounded cause, i keep thinking about a second of time in my memory and i ask myself "where did that moment go" "Where is the past?" [i am so serious] will i ever see what happened at that moment ever again, "no", i recognize that i am a trace of all the past that i witnessed, and that whatever in my head from chemical reactions is a representation of that memory, but how manipulative is that since there is no substance to it? over the years, memories get distorted, stories get changed, every revision of it changes something because we naturally build on thoughts, so i guess sometimes keeping something unvisited makes it closer to the real experience or that moment in time.

in a way, whatever thoughts we have didnt come from outer space and is no spark of genius because its due to the environment that made us bounded to certain type of being that evolves but mostly its not up to us. a natural disaster can change the course of life and can change the overall level of existing intelligence.

i was staring at a fish bowl and i was thinking of the fish, fish are dumb and sloppy like. what are humans in that sense for a larger being who looks from outside? do fish know anything about the outside waters. what kind of computers will tell them of whats outside the waters and what kind of imagination will tell what are humans like and how we behave,, maybe air to them is like space to us. you will know what lungs mean when you experience space, we cant be outside this sphere as the plain human beings for reasons caused by the sphere where we first came to be and makes us belong to the sphere and cant do outside it because we adapted and nothing is forcing us to change. why is my question? why we are here and not there ? how important is it to be relative to the sphere? where was i and can i evolve by choice knowing that i need more functionality to get out of here, why do we behave far from animals, why do we think before we behave, do we really think? this question scares me.

maybe we are dumb and weird too, and we look human like because of what the earth is like.
sometimes i count how many living beings are in my house, i started with the people, then looking at the trees and pets, then considering the insects and flies then thinking of the infinite possibilities in the distance between me and the tree that i see, i was thinking of my chemistry and how it drives me. how my thoughts are part of this chemistry and i see my limits when i look at the fish.

i think there is no free will. this is what im thinking. why are humans awake is another story.

they used to say " we are here to build earth " .... hmmmm.... i think destroy is more likely to be true.

قطعت حدود عقلي و ارجعت

كل مرة

و لسى ما فهمت

عقلي قللي خلص تعبت

ما شفتي لسى

هيها الشمس

بس انا ما بدي الشمس

بس بدي اعرف

انا وين

UPTIGHTNESS

i think this is the main problem of Jordanian people. don't ask me why but its like the wall everyone hides behind. what happened to simplicity, being clear and genuine, did it become so backward and makes you socially naive now?

i live in a community of uptight poeple, there is no way i can personally relax, i am uptight myself, i react to it by being part of it otherwise "i wont be good enough or knowledgable enough", family is the only place i feel like myself beside two girls i know, i lost faith in others and the fact that they could be genuine and not showing layers over layers of mind control and business crap.

anyways, im quoting this part from an article i found a person talking about uptightness:

People are uptight. Lots of them. And it’s bad. Bad for them, bad for their co-workers, families, and organizations. Uptight people create uptight policies. Uptight policies stifle creativity, happiness, and good, healthy relationships. it appears as if large groups of reactionary, really uptight people have picked opposite sides on an unimportant issue and are fighting as if winning the fight (for either side) would make the world a substantially better place.

I feel the same way about all political correctness in general. It is a symptom of uptightness - it’s about being so afraid to make a social mistake that we have to couch ideas in the most blandly incomprehensible way possible.

what is uptightness, anyway:

Aside from not being a noun, which is how I used it in the title, “uptightness” is not hard to define. Uptight behavior is expending more energy on a cause than can be justified by the best possible outcome of the effort, usually motivated by insecurity of some sort. In other words, it is treating a trivial issue as if it were paramount, not because you have a substantial, measurable interest in the outcome, but because the issue plays on your particular weaknesses as a person.

and here is an illustration of uptightness in a greeting card:

"Please accept with no obligation, implied or implicit, our best wishes for an environmentally conscious, socially responsible, low-stress, non-addictive, gender-neutral celebration of the winter solstice holiday, practiced within the most enjoyable traditions of the religious persuasion of your choice, or secular practices of your choice, with respect for the religious/secular persuasion and/or traditions of others, or their choice not to practice religious or secular traditions at all. We also wish you a fiscally successful, personally fulfilling and medically uncomplicated recognition of the generally accepted calendar year 2007, but not without due respect for the calendars of choice of other cultures whose contributions to society have helped make America great. Not to imply that America is necessarily greater than any other country nor the only America in the Western Hemisphere And without regard to the race, creed, color, age, physical ability, religious faith or sexual preference of the wishes. By accepting these greetings you are accepting these terms. This greeting is subject to clarification or withdrawal. It is freely transferable with no alteration to the original greeting. It implies no promise by the wisher to actually implement any of the wishes for herself or himself or others, and is void where prohibited by law and is revocable at the sole discretion of the wisher. This wish is warranted to perform as expected within the usual application of good tidings for a period of one year or until the issuance of a subsequent holiday greeting, whichever comes first, and warranty is limited to replacement of this wish or issuance of a new wish at the sole discretion of the wisher.”

Science Journalism Vs Consumerism

Science Journalism strives to present primary scientific litterature to the general public in simple and appealing well presented language, this kind of Journalism faces challenges in reaching people in proper context and questions the methods of addressing various ranges of scientific backgrounds.

This topic is complicated because it is increasingly affecting the development of societies and the problem is in such a way that the part that reaches the public is the "newsy" part of science, seller science that is set to take part in forming governmental policies and switching the public mind towards a direction or another for example focusing coverages on climate models or biomedical research or string theory. but there is more to it than this, if you examine the amount of pages dedicated to science in a typical newspaper, you'd be amazed that it doesn't exceed an article or two, how will a journalist in science section convey a complete research in a page to explain controversial issues that science is currently discussing and how will he manage the space and affect opinions? you'd end up saying after a reading something like "so? and? what do you want to say?? or what do you want to tell me?" simply pure sciences don't have to have a social or political reasons to exist, this is a problem in outreach when the addressed audience has not done science at college and it has been noted that a politician for example doesnt have the time to follow up beyond the first five lines a scientist starts explaining a theory, they are only interested in results when its the method is what is important to make a decision and if you examine journals that are dedicated to science, you will find that they are more and more including cover stories that are catchy and appealing and not theory-science centric that journals like National Geographic Magazine for example shifted to in order to compete on the stands to widen the base of readers which doen't suit scientists because it turned commercial.

It is important to realize that scientific truth and the truth in the news media are not the same thing. Scientific truths exist in context. They exist relative to past discoveries, and are constantly subject to review and revision. There are uncertainties associated with most discoveries, but they are accepted as working theories, and as such they can be used as stepping stones to a new level of understanding. so when you read a science paper in order to understand you need to pay attention to details that are carefully put by the journalist who had to cut information for space but aims for you to understand because its no longer ordinary litterature, it has to convey certain technical terms so you form an understanding and afterwards an opinion.

now, some are posing the question of "How Much Science One Should Know "?!?

well, if you want to be able to have a proper judgement on any issue you need to learn quite a bit more on science and dig into it, because not everything you read is right, but you will develop a feel for whats right after you do some reading in science, thats why its no longer valid not to have scientific background no matter what field you are in, because it grew to a level that it became part of making controversial decisions that currently Europeans and Americans are questioning how much should they add to science knowledge under high school studies so they would fill the gap.

Always keep in mind that news agencies and journals owners are selling you information, someone is paying for this information spread. this is fine, but you should know, that there are more important researches and studies that are worth digging into and are not given coverage and this is your part of the balance, take part in learning and thinking and deciding. even the most reputable institutes and journals want to sell at the end of the day, but that shouldnt stand in your way to find knowledge. when in doubt, look for the source.

Entertain yourself with this thought

in the middle ages, long long time ago, suppose you were a woman, who was born and raised as a christian, read the bible, loves Jesus, goes to church every sunday and before she got married, her father sat with her and told her, you are not a christian, you are a jew, we didnt tell you when you were a child because you would not keep a secret, we are secret jews, we were the new christians i.e the newly converted, back then women were not allowed to read Hebrew, men were only allowed to learn and attend the synogogue, and today you will be marrying a secret jew.

after marriage, she no longer allowed to the church, she can't really understand her new faith. what do you think happened to her belief system???
if you were her, what would you do?

PS: questions are based on The Coffee Trader by David Liss.

Syriac Aramaic

i had some little notes over the past couple of weeks while looking up stuff, first is that the Hebrew language was anciently practiced for a short span, it was used for classical writing and this language died for centuries and came back in 1882 by Eleiser Ben Yehuda, at the time of Christ, Jewish People didnt speak Hebrew, the old testement and a huge portion of the jewish litterature were written in it, but the language spoken was Aramaic and the new testement was written in Aramaic.

you know, if you google the Bible or the Quran, you will find so many virtual copies of each of them in many languages, i have been looking for the Talmud, i couldnt find a virtual copy. nowhere, no torrents, nothing, i found books talking about it, a complete set of the Talmud for 2 thousand something dollars, but i didnt find a single pdf file of it. Jewish people do not have an open door policy for whom wants to learn their faith. isn't that weird? like Jews mock so many traditional practices by Christians and Muslims and they use all historic powers in their debates. but we really dont know much about their traditions and beliefs and they dont promote it. they hide within communities, currently i really find myself interested in learning these things

another thing is that Israel is reffered to as "SHE" , i've seen it several places and read it over Jewish forums and it kind of makes me think a lot, even if you enter their virtual library, you will find that a woman or the female in general is a very sacred entity even its more important than the man. you know a jew is identified by his mother, this is what i recall.

i just find jewish people very interesting ..

anyways, yeah,,, i was talking about Syriac Aramaic,, well Aramaic is still spoken in two cities in this world, i know one, its in Syria, its called "Ma3lulaa", "Maaloula" , i have been there many times, by the way Syria is a beautiful country moving in all directions from Damascus, there is so much nature there, and the people are nice and simple, Maloula is a very nice city and i brought a medel that has Aramaic writings which i still dont understand what it says with a group of friends zamaan, there are lots of ancient churches there, you can walk for hours, Mar Takla is beautiful, and once zaman in another visit i prayed there and what i asked in that prayer from God came true, i wasnt crazy or insane but it did happen

so if you wanna listen to some Syrian Aramaic, this is Our Father prayer

"ابانا الذي في السموات"

Enjoy :)

the lines in my head

a developing country's definition, what we dont have to be one

human rights index for Jordan

understanding social transitions and coping with it

PLO-NAD and current Israeli legal theft of lands, highlight the violations by Dugard

what is freedom, seriously seriously!

prison is information out of reach

baba the goverments and children the overprotected nations from the different

salvation is education ... not luxury schools without good teachers, not multiple degrees without knowledge, not creativity without meaning, lose yourself and fight your fears.

i dont want my life to be an effect, it is and i hate it

i get scared a lot

i dont belong to anything and i dont think i tend to

i hate the media, its never the truth

i heart open source

whoever you are, whatever you are i want to know why?

i miss people and places

God Bless the Internet

the new face of addiction

thats all i guess, nightyyy

Abbas and Clamp Shells

Rice is in Ramallah and Abbas calls for a truce before resuming peace talks.

sigh.. IDF just slaughtered 110+ Palestinians and Abbas is ready to resume talks after a truce!well you can't tell Hamas to stop firing, (can you see the problem) so Israel will resume peace talks when it feels like it. its just toying with Hizballah and Iran

all you are doing is giving justification for more bloodshed, Israel won't hold you accountable when it makes bloody decisions anymore, Hamas will see you as person who doesn't value his people's worth. you lose both ways and your peace talks will become meaningless since Israel will take a weak governance as a mean for a good rip off opportunity, i doubt you are negociating on solid grounds.

Rice is here, all the world is listening to whatever you say, you have a case and you have demands. raise them and don't let go of them! let Rice assess the damage and condemn the death of one hundred and ten Palestinian souls, remove the blockade on Gaza, people are slowly dying, and release the prisoners. Israel won't give that if not internationally pushed.

you can't have peace in exchange of removing terror, this is not peace, this is twisting elbows and is a future stability threat if you want to establish real peace, you have the right to exist, your legitimacy is not waiting to be aknowledged by Israel, what you are looking forward to establish is a peace settlement that the people want in the first place. when i look at the situation, the only thing i see is that you are operating in the dark, alone and making decisions on behalf sixty years of struggle. you should be asking for more.

i look at the international scene, and i know for a fact that PLO/PNA is considered the legitimate authority speaking for Palestinias. so its YOU. when a Hamas-controlled government was formed, Israel, the United States, Canada, and the European Union froze all funds to the Palestinian Authority, these countries view Hamas as a terrorist organization regardless of its vision which stems from wanting all Palestine, obviously imposed-- Hamas is no longer accepted to be part of the governmnet, Hamas resistance approach is collectively seen as terror since it attacks "Israel's Security" but in response i say, if Israel has the right to have IDF. Armed resistance IS Justified. for Palestinians, its a matter of survival not security.

on the other hand there are members in the Knesset who further state that peace would only be achieved by "[cleansing] the country of Arabs and [resettling] them in the countries where they came from. and others who are willing to march for peace but seek that Jerusalem status is kept unaltered. i ask myself: if i agree to a two state solution, whom of those is with Tzipi Livini in the confidential negociation room and what are you looking forward to settle for?

your task is not easy, and have to have devil's advocates on your side if you wanna be walking rationally into peace, mainly you need professors in international law and human rights, this is no joke, your conflict with Hamas gave Israel a weapon to kill Palestinians. your opponant wants to take as much as it could if you keep clamp shells covering your eyes, you should be able to see that without all Palestinians agreeing to what you are doing, whatever you do is LOSING and if its for anyone's advantage its Israel's. before you embark on resuming peace talks, make peace with Hamas, you can't go on like this, its weakening you and killing the poeple, the worst mistake you ever did is siding with Israel against Hamas and im not saying Hamas as precieved organisation of terror, its against people who are palestinians as much as you are.. One Palestinian blood drop is worth all peace resolutions you'll ever do and worth all rockets Hamas will fire. this should be your priority.

words of wisdom:

ya3ni all what it takes is to hack your e-mail account, blogger account and your facebook accout to know the story of your life

ohh... what a (wonderful) - virtual woooorld :D