Diet Plan:: Week Five

okie,, i just want to snap at myself now!! GOD last week was the most terrible thing diet wise.. well its been a month now,, no lets talk about last week now,, it was damn stressful and i really lost control,fully,, i walked once for a short period of time, i had coffee with sugar and caramel syrup! i had ice cream like every two days, i had chips, popcorn, everything name it! i even had jam sandwichez, i didn't do that for ages!!

there is this damn pattern i noticed myself doing, when there is something serious on my mind, my life just stops. i just shut all focus abilities on everything and i have my brain at that spot and i obsess about it and it ruins all the right order that it needed weeks to be set. its like a reset button.. damn i hate myself when i do that! damn it damn it..

didn't lose anything, didn't gain anything during past week, thinking of four past weeks, me is not happy with results neither, its not useless, its not important in my head, that's all,, but I'm aware of myself but normally i lose control after day 3, all i need to figure is not WHAT to eat, cause i can differentiate, i have a degree in that, but when to eat, and how to manage cooking time, cooking what. what to do at work, uni and not going for whatever everyone is having.

since its been a month now, i will take full measures ,, make a spread sheet, mark weekly target, set exercise days,, buy my groceries after finishing here,

will repeat with Diet Plan Week Four

i promise for correct and accurate 14 continuous days,, i swear i will do that. break the habit,, that is. see me multi-tasking.