3 scenarios, two in the same day and one earlier that left me wondering about people [mainly women] in this part of the world.
today on my way out of the registration office at the university of Jordan, busy with the papers in my hand and actually not seeing anything from the surrounding except the thoughts in my head and how screwed this place is (this is another story) .. a girl comes from a distance saying:
her: Talaaaaaaaaaaaaaa,, Hiiii,, [hugs and kisses]
me: what a nice coincidence, loong time x, how have you been girl??? [ have not seen her in a year or so, IT graduate, we were members of voluntary work during my second year]
her: im good, leish heik nas7aneh , you were thinner !! [$$!!##@@]
me: ooh yea, i know, i have been busy with my school project, stressed a bit, i dont know really
her: aah heik intu il handaseh, something happens to your heads past 3rd year! is there a hope that you will lose the weight after graduation (with a laughter)?!! [ the unpredictable million dollar question..]
me: !!!! yeah, i guess. what have you been doing now? working? [ changing the subject ]
her: no, im not working.
me: been working and quit?
her: no. i didnt [me having weird thoughts..]
me: did you get engaged?
her: YEAH [she puts on the widest smile ever]
me: congrats, thats awesome.. who is the lucky guy?
her: he is mom's relative and we still have sometime before getting married, we are building a house, you know, living preparations. [why doesnt she wanna work then, didnt ask her ofcourse..]
me: im happy for you, hope all goes well with you, good to see you. [we exchanged phone numbers and said goodbye]
my point is its the people who have issues with how you look like. ITS NOT YOU..
1:30 pm, Dakhleeieh circle
took a cab to get back home.
cab driver: where you are heading to?
me: jabal amman, 2nd circle. [ yallah tell me its not where you wanna go to so i find another cab]
cab driver: fine, (after the car moves) but i wont drop you past the second circle, "Allah bi3eenek w btemshi shwai"
me: why is that !!!
cab driver: i will get stuck in the traffic jam if i get to where you want..
me: !!!!! [ if im not wrong its your job to drive me home, right? i didnt say anything]
cab driver: there are many reasons to walk, the weather is fine and you will get to burn some cholesterol
me: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [ screw you ]
cab driver: if there was no jam, i will see if i would drop you in.
he didnt drop me home. if i took public transportation, it would have been more decent.
what i think. people in Jordan do not mind their own business, they dont think before speaking. they are not considerate. and above all, why on earth they think that a chubby girl needs pity or by any chance needs to be patted for gaining weight. people are sick.
if it makes them feel good about themselves, let it be. i call this 3oqad nafsieh.
i love myself. mind you.
my second cousin's birthday, 2 years old. my cousin's mother in law comes up to me
CMiL: tsk tsk tsk.. leish heik 3amleh bi 7alek ... 7aram 3aleiki.
me: [smiling, i dont see her except on birthdays and holidays.. hi]
CMiL: after you have gained weight, you proved that all the females in your family are easily pro getting fat.. [cruella got her moment of victory]
me: ma3lesh auntie, barja3 ban7af.
i call these kind of people, Rude & Waqe7een. may God give them something worthy to obsess with. Amen.